Time : 6.30 pagi, lepas sahur.
We have had our sahur, cleaned the kitchen, sidai kain, and checked my facebook status...mmm...
After this, I need to pack my things, tidy up the bedroom and off we go back to our home town.
Hubby will drop me at my mom's house while he will be going straight to my mother in law's house. I foresee a very busy day ahead. My mom will asked me to do 1001 things and I hope I could just bare it...ha ha
Mom called yesterday and she sounded happy. She informed me (although I knew already) that my sister from Terengganu is coming back for raya and asked me to buy this special ginger pickle from one Arabic shop located at section 4 Shah Alam. My mother had also asked my other sister to bring back fish...yup, the son in law from Terengganu is coming, mesti ada ikan...I did bought some fishes too...
I discovered this morning that my kakcik is also spending the first raya di Chemor. Hey, is this a miracle or what? Almost full house, this is the first time ever after a long long time. Alhamdulillah.
But, since we are going to have a almost full house this, be prepared for :
1) to be separated from your partner/family at night. Haaa, mana cukup bilik untuk semua. Geng budak lelaki di depan tv on the ground floor, Girls di depan tv on the first floor (I'll have to join them with my other sisters I think), and lelaki dewasa selalunya akan tidur di living room on the first floor.
2) My mom will be busy with his rules and regulations. Huh, basuh pinggan masing-masing lepas makan, sidai towel elok-elok, jangan campak baju kotor atas lantai....bla bla bla...but thank you mom, with your rules, semua orang become more discipline and the house looks better. Tapi jangan la garang sangat..
3) Berebut toilet/bathroom. Buat banyak mana pun tak kan cukup bilik air ni. Walau bagaimanapun, the situation is better now since most of my nieces/nephews are now grown up. If not, they may spend up to 1 hour playing in the bathroom.
4) To keep on chatting and eating, non stop...discipline yourself cikbib, you better.
5) To work hard i.e. to cook for 50 people for 3 times a day, to maintain the house with 50 people, to basuh baju, lipat for 50 people...haaaa, macam asrama pulak. Tapi tak pe, bukan selalu kan? Lagipun I have a good team. My sisters and sisters in law are all cekap.
6) And to be prepapred mentally...mesti ada yang terkasar bahasa, tersilap tingkah laku, berbeza pandangan dll. Tak pe, rasanya kami semua sudah dewasa, dan boleh menerima pandangan orang lain, dan saling memaafkan.
7) To spend a lot of money..ha ha. Berapa kilo beras akan habis? berapa banyak ayam akan habis? ha ha, kami kena kongsi duit, alhamdulillah, ada rezekinya.
Haaa, how I looked forward for this raya. Semoga semuanya akan go on smoothly, Insya allah.
I will not be able to update this blog during my raya break, therefore, I would like to take this opportunity to wish all of you out there, happy hari raya!
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Friday, August 26, 2011
Hari terakhir di ofis sebelum raya
Saya tengah duduk seorang diri dalam gelap, waktu lunch. Mood cuti memang sudah sampai, so, sebenarnya, saya sudah tidak berapa rajin mahu bekerja...
ramai officer saya yang bagitahu mereka mahu ke Jalan TAR tengahari ini, terpengaruh juga tadi lalu terus menalifon cikmin, malangnya cikmin dah cuti raya...so..saya pun cancel plan ke Jalan TAR. Tapi elok juga tak jadi pergi sebab hari hujan.
oleh sebab tidak jadi ke jalan TAR, saya pun ke KL Sentral. Jalan, cari makan, cari majalah, tengok-tengok barang. Saya beli satu beg/sampul kecil, untuk jadi pensil case/letak culculator dll. RM10 aje, boleh lah.
Saya juga topup touch and go sikit
lepas tu, saya pergi beli roti sebab saya tidak boleh puasa hari ni. Sebenarnya saya teringin something yang hot and fresh, malu pulak nak pergi membeli, so cancel, roti pun okay, alhamdulillah.
tengok-tengok majalah, hmmm, tiada yang interesting. Selalunya waktu raya, saya suka beli yang ada gambar artis di rumah mereka, ha ha ha..saya ni suka tengok rumah orang.
So now, saya sudah makan roti, minum air mineral dan tulis blog. Husband saya sudah beli 4 ekor ayam yang perlu di proses malam ni. Dia juga ada membeli ikan. Kami akan balik bersama-sama ikan dan ayam itu esok, insya allah.
Semoga saya kuat malam ni, selalunya, saya bukannya larat nak buka mata sangat. Takpe, nanti, waktu proses ikan, saya tutup mata, tangan aja buat kerja, boleh?...
Malam ni, saya perlu basuh kain juga. Saya akan tinggalkan rumah dalam keadaan kurang kemas tu ajalah sebab mesti tak sempat/tak larat nak kemas. Bukanlah tidak kemas sangat, tapi ada beberapa kerja yang masih belum sempurna, itu aja. Tapi baju mesti basuh.
Huh, ada gangguan, officer minta kebenaran balik awal, takut komuter penuh, ramai orang. Sebab saya pernah jadi customer commuter sebelum ni, dan saya amat faham keadaan commuter yang sesak lebih dari sardin lagi, saya pun kata, boleh la balik. Kerja dia, sudah disettlekan pagi tadi, insya allah tiada perkara berbangkit lagi hari ni.
Huh, ada bunyi incoming emails...laaa, ada lagi orang submit application online, terpaksa lah settle kan selepas ni. Ada query juga dari MITI, Sham punya, tak pe, nanti saya jawab.
Okay lah, sebab hujan dan gelap, rasanya adalah terbaik untuk saya lelap sekejap supaya ada cukup tenaga untuk saya bekerja keras malam ni.
Selamat bercuti semua, selamat berhari raya juga...Maaf zahir batin sekiranya ada kesalahan yang telah saya lakukan, sama ada sedar atau tidak.
ramai officer saya yang bagitahu mereka mahu ke Jalan TAR tengahari ini, terpengaruh juga tadi lalu terus menalifon cikmin, malangnya cikmin dah cuti raya...so..saya pun cancel plan ke Jalan TAR. Tapi elok juga tak jadi pergi sebab hari hujan.
oleh sebab tidak jadi ke jalan TAR, saya pun ke KL Sentral. Jalan, cari makan, cari majalah, tengok-tengok barang. Saya beli satu beg/sampul kecil, untuk jadi pensil case/letak culculator dll. RM10 aje, boleh lah.
Saya juga topup touch and go sikit
lepas tu, saya pergi beli roti sebab saya tidak boleh puasa hari ni. Sebenarnya saya teringin something yang hot and fresh, malu pulak nak pergi membeli, so cancel, roti pun okay, alhamdulillah.
tengok-tengok majalah, hmmm, tiada yang interesting. Selalunya waktu raya, saya suka beli yang ada gambar artis di rumah mereka, ha ha ha..saya ni suka tengok rumah orang.
So now, saya sudah makan roti, minum air mineral dan tulis blog. Husband saya sudah beli 4 ekor ayam yang perlu di proses malam ni. Dia juga ada membeli ikan. Kami akan balik bersama-sama ikan dan ayam itu esok, insya allah.
Semoga saya kuat malam ni, selalunya, saya bukannya larat nak buka mata sangat. Takpe, nanti, waktu proses ikan, saya tutup mata, tangan aja buat kerja, boleh?...
Malam ni, saya perlu basuh kain juga. Saya akan tinggalkan rumah dalam keadaan kurang kemas tu ajalah sebab mesti tak sempat/tak larat nak kemas. Bukanlah tidak kemas sangat, tapi ada beberapa kerja yang masih belum sempurna, itu aja. Tapi baju mesti basuh.
Huh, ada gangguan, officer minta kebenaran balik awal, takut komuter penuh, ramai orang. Sebab saya pernah jadi customer commuter sebelum ni, dan saya amat faham keadaan commuter yang sesak lebih dari sardin lagi, saya pun kata, boleh la balik. Kerja dia, sudah disettlekan pagi tadi, insya allah tiada perkara berbangkit lagi hari ni.
Huh, ada bunyi incoming emails...laaa, ada lagi orang submit application online, terpaksa lah settle kan selepas ni. Ada query juga dari MITI, Sham punya, tak pe, nanti saya jawab.
Okay lah, sebab hujan dan gelap, rasanya adalah terbaik untuk saya lelap sekejap supaya ada cukup tenaga untuk saya bekerja keras malam ni.
Selamat bercuti semua, selamat berhari raya juga...Maaf zahir batin sekiranya ada kesalahan yang telah saya lakukan, sama ada sedar atau tidak.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Sesi Berbuka Puasa Di Luar
Saya adalah terima beberapa jemputan berpuasa di luar. Ada dua tiga yang saya buat tak tahu je. Tapi, setelah tepis-tepis yang lain, saya terpaksalah pergi juga yang satu ni.
Hmmm, bukan apa, malas nak pergi sebab susah nak solat sikit...lagi satu, sian kat hubby tinggal sorang-sorang. Tapi tak pe lah, satu hari ini saja.
So, sekarang ni, saya tengah lepak, tulis blog, sementara menanti waktu pergi ke Le Meridien. Ada kerja yang perlu di buat sebenarnya, tapi tak de mood sebab meeting tadi kena jentik sikit..walaupun kesannya biasa-biasa sahaja, saya masih perlu bertenang dan bernafas dahulu...inhale...lepas
Untuk raya, duit memang sudah banyak habis dan banyak perkara yang sudah settle kecuali belum tukar duit raya lagi...ha yang itu, memang akan significant juga jumlahnya. Tak pa lah, ikhlaskan lah diri ini untuk bersedekah..
Okaylah, itu aja...selamat berbuka puasa semua!!
Hmmm, bukan apa, malas nak pergi sebab susah nak solat sikit...lagi satu, sian kat hubby tinggal sorang-sorang. Tapi tak pe lah, satu hari ini saja.
So, sekarang ni, saya tengah lepak, tulis blog, sementara menanti waktu pergi ke Le Meridien. Ada kerja yang perlu di buat sebenarnya, tapi tak de mood sebab meeting tadi kena jentik sikit..walaupun kesannya biasa-biasa sahaja, saya masih perlu bertenang dan bernafas dahulu...inhale...lepas
Untuk raya, duit memang sudah banyak habis dan banyak perkara yang sudah settle kecuali belum tukar duit raya lagi...ha yang itu, memang akan significant juga jumlahnya. Tak pa lah, ikhlaskan lah diri ini untuk bersedekah..
Okaylah, itu aja...selamat berbuka puasa semua!!
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Yang baru and not so important
It's Saturday, 9.45 p.m. Hubby is still not back from his tarawikh prayer and here I am, taking a little break after I completed cleaning the house, yup my weekly routine. I swept and mopped the floor, but there are just too many things in my house at the moment, yup, things that we need to bring home for raya, so, it is still a little messy.
I realised that the number of visitors increased whenever there are photos posted in this blog. But I am just too lazy to upload, but today, tak pe lah, I upload sikit ye...
Haa, ini towel baru, beli di Aussino Putrajaya. Of course we did not plan to buy, we went into the shop to cuci mata only, but hubby decided to buy one piece of bath towel (since ada sale), and I pulak, minta nak satu and saw this one, which is cheaper and complete 3 pieces. Yang hubby ni pulak, nampak I punye complete satu set, dia pun nak juga, dan dia telah choosee....
haaa...tengok tuh, purple, combine with green and orange. Mak aiiii...tapi very interesting kan? untuk towel, no problem. Jangan pakai seluar purple, talipinggang hijau and baju orange, sudah.
Haaa, lagi satu, towel line tu pun baru install juga. Baru beli..kami kena beli untuk bilik air lain juga selepas ni..
Lagi satu, ini pun beli di putrajaya, di kedai ...tak ingat la pulak. For me, this this key holder is important to avoid a person like me from keep on loosing my set of keys...
haaa, lagi satu...hiksss...beli handbag baru...ada kedai kat SACC mall tu buat sale, 50% OFF. Mula-mula ingat tak nak beli, dah keluar kedai, pergi beli benda lain. Waktu balik, nak pergi parking lot, singgah balik kedai tu, kut la bag tu ada lagi...hi hi hi...ada, so saya pun beli lah...
Saya rasa saya sangat pandai spend my money lah nowadays...it's a therapy to shop...sejak kerja makin stress....weekend aja, haa, melompat nak pergi somewhere...haaaa, good luck to me.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Hubby asked me to finish up the report on our Tokyo trip this morning, so, today's post is on our trip to lake Kawaguchiko, to have a better view of Mount Fuji.
We started off very early and took a bus ride. The journey took us about 2 and a half hours and the traffic was bad. But once we were out of Tokyo, the traffic was smoother and the view was simply breathtaking. The rivers, the mountains, the paddy field, the houses in the Japanese village was totally different from Tokyo City.
Let's enjoy the photos eh:
The photo was taken from our moving bus
Once we reach the bus station, we need to walk for another 20 minutes to the lake. We passed through houses and this tree, ha ha
mula-mula, sesat, tapi bila dah nampak ni, legaaaa
Jalan lagi...I don't mind sebab tak panas
sudah sampai
Kami pergi naik one bukit via a cable car, from this bukit, we can view Mount Fuji clearly
Ngeri tak? the ride was rather short, if you are to compare with Langkawi's cable car ride
Waktu naik cable car ni, the view was marvellous..
excited tangkap gambar
kami berkelah di atas bukit, bawa bekal la
belakang tu Mount Fuji, Bukan senang nak tunggu tak de awan yang menutupi puncak gunung ni
Pas tu kami turun nak beli ticket untuk boat ride round the lake
there, march, march
seronok, angin dia sejuk
haaa,, suhu dia, 19 degree aje
kami tak sempat naik ni, sedih
Lepas sahur punya cerita
I take leave today, so does hubby. We anticipate a very bad traffic jam this evening after work just like the past years when Selangor is on leave for Nuzul Quran, yet people in the Federal Territory are working. Another contributing factor is the fact that Government Servant has already got their half month bonus yesterday, meaning that all of them are ready to spend and do their shopping.
During the fasting month, I started my day early. Right after sahur, I will take my bath, perform my morning prayer and go straight to work at around 6.35 - 6.40. I will make sure that all ironing task was done the night before. Despite that, the traffic is always bad. It will take 1 hour to reach office. If it is not during the month of Ramadhan, and I were to go out from my house at 6.30, I will be able to reach office at 7.00.
Due to that, I can't help feeling sleepy in my car and how I wish I could sleep at home. Yeah, but like today, even though I am on leave, I just could not sleep la pulak. Besar aja mata ni terbuka. urgghh, geram pulak.
My mother called me last night, but somehow I missed it and only realised about it this morning. I call her back and she informed me about our old washing machine which failed to function. Ha ha, washing machine tu dah berumurrr....22 tahun kut. Mek Yah beli and berkat betul. Barang-barang di rumah emak saya memang panjang umur, peti ais yang lama dulu pun berumur lebih 20 tahun sampai kita orang tak sabar dan tanya, bila nak rosak ni? Kami nak yang baru. Ha ha, akhirnya, tak rosak juga, tapi kami sedekahkan kepada orang, and beli juga yang baru dan gedabak besarnya. Alhamdulillah, yang baru ni memang lebih sesuai, ye lah, bila sampai lebih 50 orang balik sekaligus kan, memang perlu peti sejuk yang lebih kapasitinya.
Hmm, cakap fasal 50 orang, kami sekeluarga memang sudah lama tidak beramai-ramai menyambut hari raya. Mungkin tahun ini lebih ramai dari biasa, tapi abang saya seorang masih di Jepun bersama keluarga dan mereka tidak akan balik.
Saya ada seorang kakak yang tinggal di Terengganu, saya pun tak ingat bila tahun terakhir dia beraya di Chemor, agaknya 4 tahun dulu kut. Yang ini mungkin tidak balik.
Seorang lagi kakak saya yang di Putrajaya tu, dia memang tidak beraya di Chemor, saya pun tak pasti kenapa, tapi dia akan beraya di rumah keluarga mertuanya di Kuala Kangsar.
Saya ingat lagi pernah pada satu hari di bulan Ramadhan, emak saya tiba tiba menjadi lebih 'persistant' dan berusaha bersungguh-sungguh supaya kakcik saya berbuka puasa di Chemor. Kakcik saya tu, baik orangnya, tetapi somehow she missed the signed given by my mother yang tidak berterus terang. Atau mungkin dia ada sebab lain yang saya pulak miss...mungkin.
Saya pulak, jadi Pak Sanggup je la, bila turn orang lain tak de, saya pun menyaggup lah balik kg, alhamdulillah suami saya masih okay...sementara arrangement masih sesuai lah, mungkin ada masanya saya terpaksa juga beraya di kg suami.
Malangnya, rasanya emak saya suka kalau kakak kakak saya yang lain balik dibandingkan dengan saya. Saya ni, memang tidak berapa baik jika dibandingkan dengan kakak kakak saya yang lain. Saya memang tidak berapa boleh berkomunikasi dengan emak saya, kalau bercakap pun, asyik nak marah aja...so, saya akan kurangkan bercakap, if not, kami akan sama sama bengang.
Pemalasnya pulak, Ya Rabbi, ye lah, rumah nya besar tak hingat, penat tau nak menyapu dan mengemop...melaut-laut
Yang pastinya, saya perasan, mungkin sebab saya terlalu selalu balik, bila saya balik, emak saya tak rasa apa pun. Pernah sekali tu, bila saya sampai di rumah/Chemor, emak saya selamba aja kata, duduk lah dulu, cari lah makanan sendiri ye, mak nak tengok Malim Kundang sat...ha ha
Tapi saya tahu emak saya selesa dengan kakak-kakak saya yang lain, sebab mereka memang lembut dan baik...ha ha, tu lah, masalahnya, yang bebal ni la aja yang lebih banyak masa nak balik kan...sian mak saya.
Tapi, kalau kakak-kakak saya yang di Terengganu atau Putrajaya tu balik, hmmm, mak saya memang akan fokus melayan mereka berdua tu. Mungkin rindu?
Baru-baru ni, kakak saya yang di Putrajaya tu ada balik ke rumah dan kebetulan saya ada hal dan menelefon emak saya. Emak saya, oleh kerana terlalu fokus dengan kakak saya tuh, sampai tidak berminat langsung nak bercakap dengan saya. Bila saya baru bermula nak bercakap, dia terus kata 'kakcik ada kat rumah ni, nanti kita cakap lain kali'...and I was like...speechless.
Tapi emak saya memang macam tu, kalau dia tengah tengok telenovela, jangan telefon dia, dia akan menunjukkan yang dia tidak berminat bercakap...ehhh...boleh pulak dia berterus terang kan? Atau dengan saya aja kut?
Oleh kerana terlalu fokus dengan anak-anak yang dirindui juga, kadang-kadang emak saya silap dalam membuat 'priority'. Contohnya, sekiranya kakak saya dari Terengganu tu balik beraya, emak saya tidak mahu pergi berjalan ke mana-mana. Dia semacam tidak mahu hilang walau seminit pun daripada masa yang ada untuk di luangkan bersama-sama anak perempuan yang dia agak susah untuk berjumpa tu.
Hmmm...emak saya selalu pesan dengan kakak-kakak saya supaya sentiasa memaafkan anak-anak dan jangan sekali-kali berkecil hati dengan anak-anak sampai melabel mereka menjadi anak derhaka. Dan saya rasa, itu lah yang emak saya lakukan sekarang. Saya juga tahu, kakak-kakak saya juga baik orangnya, tapi mungkin belum sampai message yang satu ini kepada mereka, atau mereka sebenarnya faham, tapi mereka ada masalah mereka sendiri.
Sekarang emak saya sudah berumur 77 tahun. Dia masih tinggal berseorangan di rumah. Semangatnya masih kuat, dia masih stubborn as ever, tapi realitinya dia semakin tua.
Saya telah diberi rezeki oleh Allah untuk melihat bagaimana daripada seorang yang kuat, tidak boleh duduk diam, emak saya menjadi lebih perlahan. Walau pun dia masih boleh berjalan, tapi dia akan menghargai sekiranya dia boleh dipimpin. Emak saya juga cepat penat, sekiranya dahulu dia tidak suka tidur siang, pada masa sekarang, dia pasti akan mengambil a short nap before zuhur.
There were times when she could not bend her body untuk memotong kuku kakinya. Ye, alhamdulillah, saya diberi peluang untuk berkhidmat memotong kuku kakinya. Bukan semua orang dapat memberi khidmat yang semacam itu untuk ibu mereka kan?
Emak saya juga tidak lagi boleh berjalan jauh, lutut berlaga, ha ha...saya ada belikan ubat, selepas itu, saya dan kakak saya yang lain akan bergilir-gilir membeli ubat memang ada improvement.
Ada satu perkara yang saya suka nak share di sini, satu perkara yang saya rasa telah membuat emak saya gembira (sebab most of the time saya memang la tidak berapa baik kan). Saya ingat di mana emak saya tersangat terharu apabila saya berjaya memimpin dia untuk mencium hajaratul aswad sewaktu kami pergi mengerjakan umrah dalam tahun 1999. Dia tidak sangka langsung dia boleh melakukannya. Hmmm, melihat kegembiraan muka dia pada moment itu memang priceless!
Apa yang saya tulis ni? kenapa saya tulis ni? Saya pun tak pasti...cuma sekarang ni I wish I could sleep, tapi tak boleh, inilah jadinya.
Tak pelah, saya doakan mak saya sihat, dan seperti yang dia pinta, saya doakan semoga umurnya diberkati. Pada yang masih ada emak/makcik/ayah/pakcik, gunakan masa yang ada untuk mendekati mereka.
I am sure they were those who have been loving us dearly since your younger days. Sekarang, walaupun sudah ada kehidupan sendiri, ada orang yang lebih disayang seperti hubby/partner/friends, jangan lupa pada mereka yang telah menyumbangkan kasih sayang/tenaga/wang ringgit semasa kita kecil sebab saya pasti, mereka tidak pernah melupakan kita.
During the fasting month, I started my day early. Right after sahur, I will take my bath, perform my morning prayer and go straight to work at around 6.35 - 6.40. I will make sure that all ironing task was done the night before. Despite that, the traffic is always bad. It will take 1 hour to reach office. If it is not during the month of Ramadhan, and I were to go out from my house at 6.30, I will be able to reach office at 7.00.
Due to that, I can't help feeling sleepy in my car and how I wish I could sleep at home. Yeah, but like today, even though I am on leave, I just could not sleep la pulak. Besar aja mata ni terbuka. urgghh, geram pulak.
My mother called me last night, but somehow I missed it and only realised about it this morning. I call her back and she informed me about our old washing machine which failed to function. Ha ha, washing machine tu dah berumurrr....22 tahun kut. Mek Yah beli and berkat betul. Barang-barang di rumah emak saya memang panjang umur, peti ais yang lama dulu pun berumur lebih 20 tahun sampai kita orang tak sabar dan tanya, bila nak rosak ni? Kami nak yang baru. Ha ha, akhirnya, tak rosak juga, tapi kami sedekahkan kepada orang, and beli juga yang baru dan gedabak besarnya. Alhamdulillah, yang baru ni memang lebih sesuai, ye lah, bila sampai lebih 50 orang balik sekaligus kan, memang perlu peti sejuk yang lebih kapasitinya.
Hmm, cakap fasal 50 orang, kami sekeluarga memang sudah lama tidak beramai-ramai menyambut hari raya. Mungkin tahun ini lebih ramai dari biasa, tapi abang saya seorang masih di Jepun bersama keluarga dan mereka tidak akan balik.
Saya ada seorang kakak yang tinggal di Terengganu, saya pun tak ingat bila tahun terakhir dia beraya di Chemor, agaknya 4 tahun dulu kut. Yang ini mungkin tidak balik.
Seorang lagi kakak saya yang di Putrajaya tu, dia memang tidak beraya di Chemor, saya pun tak pasti kenapa, tapi dia akan beraya di rumah keluarga mertuanya di Kuala Kangsar.
Saya ingat lagi pernah pada satu hari di bulan Ramadhan, emak saya tiba tiba menjadi lebih 'persistant' dan berusaha bersungguh-sungguh supaya kakcik saya berbuka puasa di Chemor. Kakcik saya tu, baik orangnya, tetapi somehow she missed the signed given by my mother yang tidak berterus terang. Atau mungkin dia ada sebab lain yang saya pulak miss...mungkin.
Saya pulak, jadi Pak Sanggup je la, bila turn orang lain tak de, saya pun menyaggup lah balik kg, alhamdulillah suami saya masih okay...sementara arrangement masih sesuai lah, mungkin ada masanya saya terpaksa juga beraya di kg suami.
Malangnya, rasanya emak saya suka kalau kakak kakak saya yang lain balik dibandingkan dengan saya. Saya ni, memang tidak berapa baik jika dibandingkan dengan kakak kakak saya yang lain. Saya memang tidak berapa boleh berkomunikasi dengan emak saya, kalau bercakap pun, asyik nak marah aja...so, saya akan kurangkan bercakap, if not, kami akan sama sama bengang.
Pemalasnya pulak, Ya Rabbi, ye lah, rumah nya besar tak hingat, penat tau nak menyapu dan mengemop...melaut-laut
Yang pastinya, saya perasan, mungkin sebab saya terlalu selalu balik, bila saya balik, emak saya tak rasa apa pun. Pernah sekali tu, bila saya sampai di rumah/Chemor, emak saya selamba aja kata, duduk lah dulu, cari lah makanan sendiri ye, mak nak tengok Malim Kundang sat...ha ha
Tapi saya tahu emak saya selesa dengan kakak-kakak saya yang lain, sebab mereka memang lembut dan baik...ha ha, tu lah, masalahnya, yang bebal ni la aja yang lebih banyak masa nak balik kan...sian mak saya.
Tapi, kalau kakak-kakak saya yang di Terengganu atau Putrajaya tu balik, hmmm, mak saya memang akan fokus melayan mereka berdua tu. Mungkin rindu?
Baru-baru ni, kakak saya yang di Putrajaya tu ada balik ke rumah dan kebetulan saya ada hal dan menelefon emak saya. Emak saya, oleh kerana terlalu fokus dengan kakak saya tuh, sampai tidak berminat langsung nak bercakap dengan saya. Bila saya baru bermula nak bercakap, dia terus kata 'kakcik ada kat rumah ni, nanti kita cakap lain kali'...and I was like...speechless.
Tapi emak saya memang macam tu, kalau dia tengah tengok telenovela, jangan telefon dia, dia akan menunjukkan yang dia tidak berminat bercakap...ehhh...boleh pulak dia berterus terang kan? Atau dengan saya aja kut?
Oleh kerana terlalu fokus dengan anak-anak yang dirindui juga, kadang-kadang emak saya silap dalam membuat 'priority'. Contohnya, sekiranya kakak saya dari Terengganu tu balik beraya, emak saya tidak mahu pergi berjalan ke mana-mana. Dia semacam tidak mahu hilang walau seminit pun daripada masa yang ada untuk di luangkan bersama-sama anak perempuan yang dia agak susah untuk berjumpa tu.
Hmmm...emak saya selalu pesan dengan kakak-kakak saya supaya sentiasa memaafkan anak-anak dan jangan sekali-kali berkecil hati dengan anak-anak sampai melabel mereka menjadi anak derhaka. Dan saya rasa, itu lah yang emak saya lakukan sekarang. Saya juga tahu, kakak-kakak saya juga baik orangnya, tapi mungkin belum sampai message yang satu ini kepada mereka, atau mereka sebenarnya faham, tapi mereka ada masalah mereka sendiri.
Sekarang emak saya sudah berumur 77 tahun. Dia masih tinggal berseorangan di rumah. Semangatnya masih kuat, dia masih stubborn as ever, tapi realitinya dia semakin tua.
Saya telah diberi rezeki oleh Allah untuk melihat bagaimana daripada seorang yang kuat, tidak boleh duduk diam, emak saya menjadi lebih perlahan. Walau pun dia masih boleh berjalan, tapi dia akan menghargai sekiranya dia boleh dipimpin. Emak saya juga cepat penat, sekiranya dahulu dia tidak suka tidur siang, pada masa sekarang, dia pasti akan mengambil a short nap before zuhur.
There were times when she could not bend her body untuk memotong kuku kakinya. Ye, alhamdulillah, saya diberi peluang untuk berkhidmat memotong kuku kakinya. Bukan semua orang dapat memberi khidmat yang semacam itu untuk ibu mereka kan?
Emak saya juga tidak lagi boleh berjalan jauh, lutut berlaga, ha ha...saya ada belikan ubat, selepas itu, saya dan kakak saya yang lain akan bergilir-gilir membeli ubat memang ada improvement.
Ada satu perkara yang saya suka nak share di sini, satu perkara yang saya rasa telah membuat emak saya gembira (sebab most of the time saya memang la tidak berapa baik kan). Saya ingat di mana emak saya tersangat terharu apabila saya berjaya memimpin dia untuk mencium hajaratul aswad sewaktu kami pergi mengerjakan umrah dalam tahun 1999. Dia tidak sangka langsung dia boleh melakukannya. Hmmm, melihat kegembiraan muka dia pada moment itu memang priceless!
Apa yang saya tulis ni? kenapa saya tulis ni? Saya pun tak pasti...cuma sekarang ni I wish I could sleep, tapi tak boleh, inilah jadinya.
Tak pelah, saya doakan mak saya sihat, dan seperti yang dia pinta, saya doakan semoga umurnya diberkati. Pada yang masih ada emak/makcik/ayah/pakcik, gunakan masa yang ada untuk mendekati mereka.
I am sure they were those who have been loving us dearly since your younger days. Sekarang, walaupun sudah ada kehidupan sendiri, ada orang yang lebih disayang seperti hubby/partner/friends, jangan lupa pada mereka yang telah menyumbangkan kasih sayang/tenaga/wang ringgit semasa kita kecil sebab saya pasti, mereka tidak pernah melupakan kita.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Bila Saya Memecut
The meeting today ended at 6.20 p.m. The moment I entered my room, there were a pile of files waiting form me...urghhh, since I'll be on leave tomorrow, I decided to select the more urgent one and allocate a few minutes to went through and clear it up.
My car only started moving 5 minutes to 7. Hmmm, boleh ke sampai rumah waktu berbuka ni? Keluar aja dari KL Sentral, haaaa, tu dia, Brickfield clear, saya pun pecut.
Masuk NPE, clear.
Bayar tol pertama, kedua, phewww...pecuttttt
Keluar federal highway, mulanya slow, lepas tu, haaa, pecuttttt
Subang pun clear
Tol Batu Tiga...kacang, tak de kereta...yessss
lepas keluar batu tiga, tup tup, tak bergerak???awat nihh
Rupanya ada accident...huk aloh
hmmmm, sebab accident tu, saya hanya sampai rumah dalam jam 7.35 petang. Kira not bad la tu...Kalau hari biasa, lebih sejam baru sampai.
Agaknya suami saya pun sunyi juga kalau saya tiada di rumah dan buat bingit, so, bila saya sampai, walaupun dia tengah makan, dia terus sambut..he he...
Sayapun terus la makan...hubby beli ikan bakar dan sambal ikan bilis. Dia tak beli gulai sebab ingatkan saya boleh balik on time dan masak sayur macam biasa....hmmm, tak pe lah, tak de rezeki.
Sekarang, saya mahu mandi dan solat tarawikh...kalau tunggu tunggu ni, mahu mata tutup dulu...ngantuk dah ni...tak pe, cabaran...Selamat beribadah
My car only started moving 5 minutes to 7. Hmmm, boleh ke sampai rumah waktu berbuka ni? Keluar aja dari KL Sentral, haaaa, tu dia, Brickfield clear, saya pun pecut.
Masuk NPE, clear.
Bayar tol pertama, kedua, phewww...pecuttttt
Keluar federal highway, mulanya slow, lepas tu, haaa, pecuttttt
Subang pun clear
Tol Batu Tiga...kacang, tak de kereta...yessss
lepas keluar batu tiga, tup tup, tak bergerak???awat nihh
Rupanya ada accident...huk aloh
hmmmm, sebab accident tu, saya hanya sampai rumah dalam jam 7.35 petang. Kira not bad la tu...Kalau hari biasa, lebih sejam baru sampai.
Agaknya suami saya pun sunyi juga kalau saya tiada di rumah dan buat bingit, so, bila saya sampai, walaupun dia tengah makan, dia terus sambut..he he...
Sayapun terus la makan...hubby beli ikan bakar dan sambal ikan bilis. Dia tak beli gulai sebab ingatkan saya boleh balik on time dan masak sayur macam biasa....hmmm, tak pe lah, tak de rezeki.
Sekarang, saya mahu mandi dan solat tarawikh...kalau tunggu tunggu ni, mahu mata tutup dulu...ngantuk dah ni...tak pe, cabaran...Selamat beribadah
Sunday, August 14, 2011
It is now almost 8.30 pm.
Hubby is ready to go for his tarawikh.
Chong Wei and Lin Dan is fighting now...I hope Chong Wei will win, insya allah.
And I...ha ha ha. I had a very nice weekend. Alhamdulillah.
Hubby and I went to Alamanda Putrajaya on Saturday. Hubby bought one T-Shirt and one baju kerja. As for me, alhamdulillah, I managed to find a suitable shoes for work. It is not easy to find one that match my significant size of kaki.
Today, we went to Giant Section 14 again, and done some shopping. We bought things that we need to bring back to our kg. Items like coffee, tea, shampoo, shower gel, biscuits, bla bla bla. Urghhhh, semua barang mahal sekarang and the total amount spent was again not small.
Chong Wei menang the first game...another set...sakit perut
Hubby insist that I don't have to cook during the ramadhan. We'll buy cikbib, so that you don't have so much to do. Terharu tak? ha ha.
Tapi dia dah malas sikit pulak dah, if he used to make sure that everything is clean and the sink is empty before he went to bed, nowadays he always left the empty teapot and mug unwashed. Huh. And he hardly do the laundry any more. Reason? He said I am just to efficient and no assistance is necessary..pandaiiii.
But he still make sure he will clean up the the sink before I get back from work. And if I happen to arrive late from work, he will cook the rice. Itu pun sudah cukup baik, alhamdulillah.
Malam ni malam ke 15 dan kita akan mula membaca doa qunut di dalam solat sunat witir. Selamat beribadah semua dan semoga kita akan menjadi lebih baik selepas ini.
Dan, semoga Chong Wei menanglaaaa!
Hubby is ready to go for his tarawikh.
Chong Wei and Lin Dan is fighting now...I hope Chong Wei will win, insya allah.
And I...ha ha ha. I had a very nice weekend. Alhamdulillah.
Hubby and I went to Alamanda Putrajaya on Saturday. Hubby bought one T-Shirt and one baju kerja. As for me, alhamdulillah, I managed to find a suitable shoes for work. It is not easy to find one that match my significant size of kaki.
Today, we went to Giant Section 14 again, and done some shopping. We bought things that we need to bring back to our kg. Items like coffee, tea, shampoo, shower gel, biscuits, bla bla bla. Urghhhh, semua barang mahal sekarang and the total amount spent was again not small.
Chong Wei menang the first game...another set...sakit perut
Hubby insist that I don't have to cook during the ramadhan. We'll buy cikbib, so that you don't have so much to do. Terharu tak? ha ha.
Tapi dia dah malas sikit pulak dah, if he used to make sure that everything is clean and the sink is empty before he went to bed, nowadays he always left the empty teapot and mug unwashed. Huh. And he hardly do the laundry any more. Reason? He said I am just to efficient and no assistance is necessary..pandaiiii.
But he still make sure he will clean up the the sink before I get back from work. And if I happen to arrive late from work, he will cook the rice. Itu pun sudah cukup baik, alhamdulillah.
Malam ni malam ke 15 dan kita akan mula membaca doa qunut di dalam solat sunat witir. Selamat beribadah semua dan semoga kita akan menjadi lebih baik selepas ini.
Dan, semoga Chong Wei menanglaaaa!
Thursday, August 11, 2011
before lelap punya cerita
Now is my lunch break and I am about to take a short nap.
It has been a busy morning and another 2 meetings to attend in the afternoon.
Is everything going smooth? ha ha ha...tak thrill la kalau tak ada masalah kan? Meeting yang baru habis ni pun adalah meeting untuk menyelesaikan masalah co....huh, pusing betul
Hmm, rezeki masing-masing kan, setengah orang hidup nya senang aja, cantik, dapat kerja yang bagus/kurang memberi masalah, kahwin dengan orang yang baik/kaya, dapat anak yang comel-comel, duit pun banyak..blessed.
Saya pulak...comel..(he he he, tak nak mengaku kalah), dapat kerja yang mencabar, perlu pergi kerja yang jauh dari rumah dan terpaksa memandu hari-hari, kahwin lambat (tapi suami tetap baik, alhamdulillah), anak sampai la belum ada, duittt...insya allah banyak la nanti (positif)...
Hmmm, tapi semua yang berlaku akan membentuk diri/peribadi. Saya sentiasa belajar dan cuba memperbaiki diri. Saya bersyukur dengan apa yang Allah bagi. Saya memang bukan sempurna, tapi saya cuba menjadi yang terbaik dengan apa yang ada.
Tapi kalau dapat 5 Juta tu best jugak kan?...ha ha ha...
It has been a busy morning and another 2 meetings to attend in the afternoon.
Is everything going smooth? ha ha ha...tak thrill la kalau tak ada masalah kan? Meeting yang baru habis ni pun adalah meeting untuk menyelesaikan masalah co....huh, pusing betul
Hmm, rezeki masing-masing kan, setengah orang hidup nya senang aja, cantik, dapat kerja yang bagus/kurang memberi masalah, kahwin dengan orang yang baik/kaya, dapat anak yang comel-comel, duit pun banyak..blessed.
Saya pulak...comel..(he he he, tak nak mengaku kalah), dapat kerja yang mencabar, perlu pergi kerja yang jauh dari rumah dan terpaksa memandu hari-hari, kahwin lambat (tapi suami tetap baik, alhamdulillah), anak sampai la belum ada, duittt...insya allah banyak la nanti (positif)...
Hmmm, tapi semua yang berlaku akan membentuk diri/peribadi. Saya sentiasa belajar dan cuba memperbaiki diri. Saya bersyukur dengan apa yang Allah bagi. Saya memang bukan sempurna, tapi saya cuba menjadi yang terbaik dengan apa yang ada.
Tapi kalau dapat 5 Juta tu best jugak kan?...ha ha ha...
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Rindu?
I am not sure whether this is real or not.
Last night, while I was performing my tarawikh, I cannot help missing my Yong (eldest sister who passed away in 2008). In fact I feel she was around and watching.
I realised the same thing happened to me last ramadhan too, in fact the feeling was even stronger.
I asked dear hubby if it ever happened to him and he said yes, during the month of Ramadhan there will be times when he misses his father more than usual..
I wonder whether the ruhs are really around since they are set free in the month of Ramadhan. Maybe they are watching us too? hmmm...maybe they miss us as much as we miss them?
Well, if I were to let my mother know about this, I could predict what her advice will be. She will be saying, 'itu semua tak penting, yang penting, kita perlu terus berdoa dan sedekah kan ayat quran untuk dia'.
But I guess the feeling is good because it reminds me to keep on praying for Yong, my late father and many others who passed away. It also help to remind us on our own death...Semoga kita semua diberikan permulaan dan pengakhiran yang baik, insya allah.
Last night, while I was performing my tarawikh, I cannot help missing my Yong (eldest sister who passed away in 2008). In fact I feel she was around and watching.
I realised the same thing happened to me last ramadhan too, in fact the feeling was even stronger.
I asked dear hubby if it ever happened to him and he said yes, during the month of Ramadhan there will be times when he misses his father more than usual..
I wonder whether the ruhs are really around since they are set free in the month of Ramadhan. Maybe they are watching us too? hmmm...maybe they miss us as much as we miss them?
Well, if I were to let my mother know about this, I could predict what her advice will be. She will be saying, 'itu semua tak penting, yang penting, kita perlu terus berdoa dan sedekah kan ayat quran untuk dia'.
But I guess the feeling is good because it reminds me to keep on praying for Yong, my late father and many others who passed away. It also help to remind us on our own death...Semoga kita semua diberikan permulaan dan pengakhiran yang baik, insya allah.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Alhamdulillah
It is now 8.30pm, and both of us are resting before isyak and tarawikh. I perform my tarawikh prayer on my own while hubby will perform his at nearby surau. It was a tiring Tuesday where the meetings started and 8.30 am and only ended at 4.50pm. This time we did manage to have our lunch break though.
Somehow, despite the tiredness, I just feel like updating this blog. I consider this day as a happy day. Why? Because I made it through without feeling as stressed as usual despite of the fact almost 20 papers from my Division were KIVed and not tabled. Yup, I overcome my fear. I was not panicked and answered whatever question asked....
Doa saya supaya dipermudahkan segala urusan dimakbulkan. Doa supaya saya tenang dan bijak mengawal keadaan juga dimakbulkan. Doa supaya saya dapat berfikir dengan baik dan lisan yang fasih juga dimakbulkan.
No, today was not and easy one, things were not going as planned and there were so many obstacles, but I am thankful that I was relaxed and managed to face it all...alhamdulillah!
Somehow, despite the tiredness, I just feel like updating this blog. I consider this day as a happy day. Why? Because I made it through without feeling as stressed as usual despite of the fact almost 20 papers from my Division were KIVed and not tabled. Yup, I overcome my fear. I was not panicked and answered whatever question asked....
Doa saya supaya dipermudahkan segala urusan dimakbulkan. Doa supaya saya tenang dan bijak mengawal keadaan juga dimakbulkan. Doa supaya saya dapat berfikir dengan baik dan lisan yang fasih juga dimakbulkan.
No, today was not and easy one, things were not going as planned and there were so many obstacles, but I am thankful that I was relaxed and managed to face it all...alhamdulillah!
Saturday, August 6, 2011
2 Tahun di Jalan Ferum
It's Saturday morning, 7.30 am. I woke at 5am this morning for sahur, mandi, solat, done some reading and now is writing.
Our plan for today is to do some more shopping, but today the focus is dear hubby's office wear cum baju raya. I hope we will be able to stick to plan, or else, we have to postpone it again.
How's fasting month? Mine is going on quite well. Hubby seems to be more motivated to attend the tarawikh prayer, I hope he could maintain the momentum for the whole month. I am doing the tarawikh on my own now, but maybe tonight I'll be going to the state mosque.
A lot of things are happening now at the office. DG is about to retire and all of us is waiting patiently on who is going to be the next DG. DDG1 also is about to retire and we have a new DDG2. I was also informed that the corporatisation is happening after all sometimes in October. There will be some salary increment but no more pension for us. I also heard a lot of other things happening. I hope things will be better. I pray for good leaders in future and a much better environment for everyone.
For me it is important to enjoy the work. Imagine having to wake up every morning and hating the fact that you have to go to work for the rest of your life. It is not healthy at all. For now, I am trying to stay strong, ye lah, nak mencari rezeki kan, bukannya senang. I have also learnt how not to take everything too seriously. Learn to say 'whatever' and learn how to just listen but ignoring the fact. Sometimes it is necessary to adopt 'masuk telinga kiri, keluar telinga kanan'. Hikkssss
But as usual, I will make sure that the house is 'heaven' for both hubby and I. Though it is not perfect, we will make sure the house clean and not so messy, so that we can enjoy ourselves comfortably.
Sebenarnya saya nak bercerita tentang rumah laaa, sebab, pada 1 Ogos yang lalu, genaplah dua tahun kami berpindah dan tinggal di Jalan Ferum.
As for now, we are trying very hard to maintain the house. After sometimes, we found out that we are starting to accumulate wedding souvenirs. Hmm, mana mahu letak? Rumah pun tak lah besar sangat. As for now, we decided to keep it for a while, but maybe someday, we will just have to make a decision..maybe to let it go...
Yang lain-lain, sama saja. Nanti bila rajin, saya tangkap gambar pintu toilet yang baru kita orang istall ye...chow dulu
Our plan for today is to do some more shopping, but today the focus is dear hubby's office wear cum baju raya. I hope we will be able to stick to plan, or else, we have to postpone it again.
How's fasting month? Mine is going on quite well. Hubby seems to be more motivated to attend the tarawikh prayer, I hope he could maintain the momentum for the whole month. I am doing the tarawikh on my own now, but maybe tonight I'll be going to the state mosque.
A lot of things are happening now at the office. DG is about to retire and all of us is waiting patiently on who is going to be the next DG. DDG1 also is about to retire and we have a new DDG2. I was also informed that the corporatisation is happening after all sometimes in October. There will be some salary increment but no more pension for us. I also heard a lot of other things happening. I hope things will be better. I pray for good leaders in future and a much better environment for everyone.
For me it is important to enjoy the work. Imagine having to wake up every morning and hating the fact that you have to go to work for the rest of your life. It is not healthy at all. For now, I am trying to stay strong, ye lah, nak mencari rezeki kan, bukannya senang. I have also learnt how not to take everything too seriously. Learn to say 'whatever' and learn how to just listen but ignoring the fact. Sometimes it is necessary to adopt 'masuk telinga kiri, keluar telinga kanan'. Hikkssss
But as usual, I will make sure that the house is 'heaven' for both hubby and I. Though it is not perfect, we will make sure the house clean and not so messy, so that we can enjoy ourselves comfortably.
Sebenarnya saya nak bercerita tentang rumah laaa, sebab, pada 1 Ogos yang lalu, genaplah dua tahun kami berpindah dan tinggal di Jalan Ferum.
As for now, we are trying very hard to maintain the house. After sometimes, we found out that we are starting to accumulate wedding souvenirs. Hmm, mana mahu letak? Rumah pun tak lah besar sangat. As for now, we decided to keep it for a while, but maybe someday, we will just have to make a decision..maybe to let it go...
Yang lain-lain, sama saja. Nanti bila rajin, saya tangkap gambar pintu toilet yang baru kita orang istall ye...chow dulu
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Preparing for an Amazing Ramadan
By Asma bint Shameem
(I would like to share this )
Imagine.
Someone really, really important is coming to visit you. Surely, you would cook, clean, shop, prepare and plan everything for them, well ahead of time.
You would make sure they are comfortable and well taken care of. You would ascertain that everything is perfectly ready and adequately in place before they arrive.
Now imagine someone coming to visit you who is even more important than that....more precious, more valuable, more honourable. Wouldn't you prepare even more and give it the best you got?
Well, the best month of the year, the most blessed and most precious, has arrived.
The month that brings the fragrance of Jannah and the sweetness of Imaan....the tears of Taubah and the forgiveness of your Lord. And it's bringing with it a night that is equivalent in worship and reward, to more than a thousand months.
Wouldn't you want to prepare for that? Wouldn't you want to be ready for it with all your heart and soul so that you don't miss this great opportunity?
They say the more prepared you are for something, the easier it is for you to handle it and the greater the chances that you will be successful at it.
And what better opportunity to prepare for something than preparing for the blessed month of Ramadhaan.
This is a month of Rahmah and Barakah, a month of taubah and istighfaar, a great opportunity for training oneself... to give up your bad deeds and build on your good ones.
So what to do?
Prepare yourself mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually for this great month.
The first thing to do is to purify your niyyah from now: you are going to fast because it is the order of Allaah and NOT because it is culture or your family does so, or even because you want to lose weight.
"O you who believe, fasting has been prescribed for you as it has been prescribed for people before you so that you will (learn how to) attain Taqwa" [al-Baqarah, 2:183]
Next, be really excited for Ramadhaan and be absolutely determined to do your utmost best and exert yourself to the max for this magnificent month of Forgiveness and Mercy from your Lord. Race with one another and compete with each other for it.
Come on. Be excited. Be energized. Get electrified. Get all pumped up and feel vitalized.
After all, this is a time when the gates of Jannah are all open. WIDE open. And all the gates of Jahannum are closed. Yes, alhamdulillaah CLOSED.
And here is a chance for you to get all your sins forgiven.
Get invigorated and motivated. Realize that the month of Ramadhaan is a month of amazing ibaadah and intense dua, astounding khushoo' and remarkable hope, sincere taubah and extraordinary istighfaar.
And it is NOT a month of laziness or sleeping, cooking and feasting, or just being plain grouchy and irritable.
Don't let the thought of the heat or the long day get to you or dampen your spirit. It is only the Shaytaan trying to play with your mind and spoil this wonderful time for you.
Have full intention from now, to read as much of the Qur'aan as you can.
Love the Qur'aan. Build a close relationship with it. Realize that these are the Words of your Lord....Words that will take you to Jannah, your Ultimate Goal.
Don't just read it with your eyes. Read it with your heart. Let it sink in your soul. Savour the joy and cherish the delight in reading the Book of Allaah. Taste the sweetness of Imaan.
Don't be in a rush to quickly finish the reading. Rather, take your time to ponder over the words and understand the meanings.
Don't think..."when am I going to finish this Surah? Rather....when am I going to implement this in my life?" Remember, nothing is sweeter and more pleasurable than the ayaat of the Qur'aan that you can understand.
Prepare yourself to do plenty of sujood....long, drawn out sujood, in Taraweeh and Tahajjud. Feel close to your Rabb when you do that sajda.
Realize that this is most honourable position for you...placing the thing you value most, on the ground, humbled before your Creator. You are the slave and He is the Master. You are the 'abd and He is your Owner.
Resolve from today, to make a lot of dua. Make a dua list. Prepare it from now. And when you sit down to break your fast, or when you stand in front of your Creator in Salah, in Taraaweeh or in the middle of the night, or any time during the night or day, spread out those hands and ask al-Kareem, the Most Generous, the One Who gives to one and to all.
Make sincere, heartfelt dua whenever and wherever you can. Don't let a moment slip by. And don't forget to be thankful to the One Who gave you everything.
Be ready from now to do abundant istighfaar, lots and lots of it. Do it every single day.
In the darkness of the night, when the whole world is asleep, have full realization, that this is no ordinary time, no time to waste away sleeping. Ar-Rahmaan is calling. Wouldn't you want to respond??
So knock on the door of the Almighty. He is al-Ghafoor, the Oft-Forgiver and you are nothing....just a weak and sinful human being.
Bend your head with shame, and cry. Cry like you've never cried before. Ask for His forgiveness. Make firm resolve never, ever, to go back to your sins...never, ever to do those bad deeds again.
Go ahead...spread out those hands and be sincere and then be certain He will surely respond.
Train yourself from now to control those eyes and ears of yours, that tongue and those limbs. Remember your fasting will just be a kind of starvation if you don't keep them in check.
The Prophet (Sal Allaahu alayhi wa sallam) said: “Whoever does not give up false speech and acting upon it, Allaah has no need of his giving up his food and drink.” (Bukhaari)
And most importantly, have firm determination from this moment on, to continue all the good deeds and habits that you will develop during Ramadhaan to continue even after Ramadhaan is over.
Remember, you are not a good Muslim just during a special month of the year. Rather you are a Muslim throughout the three hundred and sixty five days.
Use this month of taqwa and training to coach and develop your nafs, to cultivate virtuous deeds and actions and to give up your bad ones.
Tell me, are you going to let all that hard work of fasting, waking up in the middle of the night, reading all that Qur'aan, standing up for Taraaweeh and prayers, and all that dua go to waste?
Other tips:
Get to know the rules of fasting from now, so that your fasting can be closest to the Sunnah and thus be more beloved and acceptable to Allaah.
Clarify any doubts that you may have and don't be afraid to ask a scholar.
Cleanse your heart of any anger, hatred, grudges, etc from now. And forgive everyone. That's because forgiveness is delayed for the one who has anger and grudge against his Muslim brother/sister.
The Prophet (sal Allaahu Alayhi wa sallam) said: “The gates of Paradise are opened on Monday and Thursday, and everyone who does not associate anything with Allaah is forgiven, except a man who has had an argument with his brother. It is said: ‘Wait for these two until they reconcile, wait for these two until they reconcile, wait for these two until they reconcile.” (Muslim)
Finish up on your Ramadhaan and Eid preparation, cooking, shopping, etc. from now so that you can free up all the time during Ramadhaan for Ibaadah.
If you are like most people who give their zakat during Ramadhaan, get it all calculated and worked out before the month starts.
To conclude, think positive and have firm resolve. Strive with all your effort to do your best so that this will be an amazing, hair-raising, awe-inspiring, heart-stopping experience of a life time. Your best Ramadhaan ever.
Set your goals at the highest.
Don't settle for anything less than JANNAH
(I would like to share this )
Imagine.
Someone really, really important is coming to visit you. Surely, you would cook, clean, shop, prepare and plan everything for them, well ahead of time.
You would make sure they are comfortable and well taken care of. You would ascertain that everything is perfectly ready and adequately in place before they arrive.
Now imagine someone coming to visit you who is even more important than that....more precious, more valuable, more honourable. Wouldn't you prepare even more and give it the best you got?
Well, the best month of the year, the most blessed and most precious, has arrived.
The month that brings the fragrance of Jannah and the sweetness of Imaan....the tears of Taubah and the forgiveness of your Lord. And it's bringing with it a night that is equivalent in worship and reward, to more than a thousand months.
Wouldn't you want to prepare for that? Wouldn't you want to be ready for it with all your heart and soul so that you don't miss this great opportunity?
They say the more prepared you are for something, the easier it is for you to handle it and the greater the chances that you will be successful at it.
And what better opportunity to prepare for something than preparing for the blessed month of Ramadhaan.
This is a month of Rahmah and Barakah, a month of taubah and istighfaar, a great opportunity for training oneself... to give up your bad deeds and build on your good ones.
So what to do?
Prepare yourself mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually for this great month.
The first thing to do is to purify your niyyah from now: you are going to fast because it is the order of Allaah and NOT because it is culture or your family does so, or even because you want to lose weight.
"O you who believe, fasting has been prescribed for you as it has been prescribed for people before you so that you will (learn how to) attain Taqwa" [al-Baqarah, 2:183]
Next, be really excited for Ramadhaan and be absolutely determined to do your utmost best and exert yourself to the max for this magnificent month of Forgiveness and Mercy from your Lord. Race with one another and compete with each other for it.
Come on. Be excited. Be energized. Get electrified. Get all pumped up and feel vitalized.
After all, this is a time when the gates of Jannah are all open. WIDE open. And all the gates of Jahannum are closed. Yes, alhamdulillaah CLOSED.
And here is a chance for you to get all your sins forgiven.
Get invigorated and motivated. Realize that the month of Ramadhaan is a month of amazing ibaadah and intense dua, astounding khushoo' and remarkable hope, sincere taubah and extraordinary istighfaar.
And it is NOT a month of laziness or sleeping, cooking and feasting, or just being plain grouchy and irritable.
Don't let the thought of the heat or the long day get to you or dampen your spirit. It is only the Shaytaan trying to play with your mind and spoil this wonderful time for you.
Have full intention from now, to read as much of the Qur'aan as you can.
Love the Qur'aan. Build a close relationship with it. Realize that these are the Words of your Lord....Words that will take you to Jannah, your Ultimate Goal.
Don't just read it with your eyes. Read it with your heart. Let it sink in your soul. Savour the joy and cherish the delight in reading the Book of Allaah. Taste the sweetness of Imaan.
Don't be in a rush to quickly finish the reading. Rather, take your time to ponder over the words and understand the meanings.
Don't think..."when am I going to finish this Surah? Rather....when am I going to implement this in my life?" Remember, nothing is sweeter and more pleasurable than the ayaat of the Qur'aan that you can understand.
Prepare yourself to do plenty of sujood....long, drawn out sujood, in Taraweeh and Tahajjud. Feel close to your Rabb when you do that sajda.
Realize that this is most honourable position for you...placing the thing you value most, on the ground, humbled before your Creator. You are the slave and He is the Master. You are the 'abd and He is your Owner.
Resolve from today, to make a lot of dua. Make a dua list. Prepare it from now. And when you sit down to break your fast, or when you stand in front of your Creator in Salah, in Taraaweeh or in the middle of the night, or any time during the night or day, spread out those hands and ask al-Kareem, the Most Generous, the One Who gives to one and to all.
Make sincere, heartfelt dua whenever and wherever you can. Don't let a moment slip by. And don't forget to be thankful to the One Who gave you everything.
Be ready from now to do abundant istighfaar, lots and lots of it. Do it every single day.
In the darkness of the night, when the whole world is asleep, have full realization, that this is no ordinary time, no time to waste away sleeping. Ar-Rahmaan is calling. Wouldn't you want to respond??
So knock on the door of the Almighty. He is al-Ghafoor, the Oft-Forgiver and you are nothing....just a weak and sinful human being.
Bend your head with shame, and cry. Cry like you've never cried before. Ask for His forgiveness. Make firm resolve never, ever, to go back to your sins...never, ever to do those bad deeds again.
Go ahead...spread out those hands and be sincere and then be certain He will surely respond.
Train yourself from now to control those eyes and ears of yours, that tongue and those limbs. Remember your fasting will just be a kind of starvation if you don't keep them in check.
The Prophet (Sal Allaahu alayhi wa sallam) said: “Whoever does not give up false speech and acting upon it, Allaah has no need of his giving up his food and drink.” (Bukhaari)
And most importantly, have firm determination from this moment on, to continue all the good deeds and habits that you will develop during Ramadhaan to continue even after Ramadhaan is over.
Remember, you are not a good Muslim just during a special month of the year. Rather you are a Muslim throughout the three hundred and sixty five days.
Use this month of taqwa and training to coach and develop your nafs, to cultivate virtuous deeds and actions and to give up your bad ones.
Tell me, are you going to let all that hard work of fasting, waking up in the middle of the night, reading all that Qur'aan, standing up for Taraaweeh and prayers, and all that dua go to waste?
Other tips:
Get to know the rules of fasting from now, so that your fasting can be closest to the Sunnah and thus be more beloved and acceptable to Allaah.
Clarify any doubts that you may have and don't be afraid to ask a scholar.
Cleanse your heart of any anger, hatred, grudges, etc from now. And forgive everyone. That's because forgiveness is delayed for the one who has anger and grudge against his Muslim brother/sister.
The Prophet (sal Allaahu Alayhi wa sallam) said: “The gates of Paradise are opened on Monday and Thursday, and everyone who does not associate anything with Allaah is forgiven, except a man who has had an argument with his brother. It is said: ‘Wait for these two until they reconcile, wait for these two until they reconcile, wait for these two until they reconcile.” (Muslim)
Finish up on your Ramadhaan and Eid preparation, cooking, shopping, etc. from now so that you can free up all the time during Ramadhaan for Ibaadah.
If you are like most people who give their zakat during Ramadhaan, get it all calculated and worked out before the month starts.
To conclude, think positive and have firm resolve. Strive with all your effort to do your best so that this will be an amazing, hair-raising, awe-inspiring, heart-stopping experience of a life time. Your best Ramadhaan ever.
Set your goals at the highest.
Don't settle for anything less than JANNAH
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