Sunday, July 31, 2011

Hubby and I were supposed to go to Midvalley today, but it did not happen because we woke up a little bit late...I blame mr hubby, but he blamed me....

I woke up a little late but managed to heat some leftovers and cooked some rice. We skipped dinner yesterday and I am sure hubby will be very hungry the moment the wakes up.

I managed to clean/tidy up the house, took my bath and woke up mr hubby. Both of us were ready for brunch at around 11 am.

After that, we lazed around in front of the tv, read the newspapers and watched tv. I went out at about 3.00 with my sister and when I was back, I started to cook some rendang ayam..saja, sempena menyambut puasa. Hubby loved it and is looking forward to have the same dish for sahur.

Selamat berpuasa everyone out there, semoga dipermudahkan semua urusan kita dalam beribadah. Semoga diberi kekuatan untuk tidak meninggalkan solat tarawikh. Semoga kualiti solat tarawikh serta ibadah puasa kita tahun ini adalah lebih baik daripada tahun lepas, insya allah.

Hari minggu sebelum Ramadhan

The moment I opened my eyes this morning, I was sooooo happy, yup, it's Saturday, it's a holiday, yipppeeeeee!!

We have a long list of things to do today and the first thing was to send my pesona for it's 60,000 km service.

After that, we had breakfast at cili merah,

Then we decided to go to Komplek PKNS, looking for baju raya, yay!!

Beli, jangan tak beli...saya beli..satu, dua, tiga baju kurung...itu je lah kut untuk tahun ni, kalau tidak, budget burst.

lepas tu, beli majalah, beli harmoni dan majalah wanita....saja untuk menghiburkan diri saya...

lepas tu, kami pun balik rumah, tapi singgah sekejap di seksyen 2 untuk beli ABC special tu..ye lah, sebelum puasa kan.

balik, makan ABC, tengok tv dan tidur.

Pukul 5, keluar ambil kereta, bil nya...RM700 lebih....memang asyik macam tu aja bil nya. Kali ni, kami perlu ganti break pad juga yang sudah habis sebelah, maklumlah, saya hari-hari asyik menekan brek kereta sepanjang perjalanan pergi dan balik.

Selepas tu, kita orang pergi Plaza Masalam, nak makan...sambil tu, saya tengok juga baju raya di situ. Saya perasan sekarang ni ada banyak baju dalam saiz ss, sss, sssss, tapi XL tak de. Bukan kah ini tidak adil? Ingat orang kurus je ke nak bergaya? Ingat orang gemuk tak nak bergaya ke? haaaa, dah marah ni.

Saya pun nak tanya lah orang yang jual baju tuh, ye lah, awat hang jual semua baju kecik je. Yang budak tu pun, jawab la dengan polite nya,' tak de la kakak, saiz terbesar, 42 je.'.

Yang saya pulak, baru je nak mengeluarkan soalan provokatif tu, tiba tiba baru lah perasan yang budak jurujual pun boleh tahan tembamnya...ha ha....mesti dia pun sedih jugak...lagi pun, kedai tu bukan dia yang punya.

Selepas insaf, saya terpandang pulak ada sorang wanita ni yang lagi gemuk dari saya, dan dia sedang membelek-belek baju juga, and of course disappointed, bila tengok dia, saya langsung terbersyukur sebab saya belum lagi ke paras gemuk setara itu, and at the same time, saya berdoa semoga saya tidak akan sampai ke tahap itu, amiiin.

Haaaa, kali ni kami round sampai tingkat teratas plaza Masalam tuh, saya siap beli beg untuk isi fail yang saya selalu bawa balik, beli polka dot...yang nampak professional sangat tuh, membosankan.

Annnd, esok kami plan nak pergi midvalley, beli baju Encik hubby pulak. Bulan puasa nanti, since shopping punya kerja dah habis, kita orang boleh buat benda lain pulak, macam mengecat tepi pintu yang baru diganti tuh...

Saya happy hari ni dan saya rasa sihat, thank you Allah...

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Today, I am the boss, since boss and Sham were both not in the office.

I arrived quite early, but could not find any breakfast. I started straight away doing my job since I have to attend a meeting at 9.00.

Once in the meeting room, alhamdulillah there were kuih. Breakfast lah tu. Alhamdulillah juga sebab member sebelah posa ganti, suruh I abiskan kuih dia...ha ha.

Meeting habis pukul 11.30. I was determined to go to the bank, to withdraw some money and also to change my ATM card. I hardly have the time to go out nowadays for lunch, but this time, I just didn't care, I need a break.

Walaupun jalan sikit aja, rasa macam best sangat...ha ha, jalan jalan kat kl sentral. Saya buat kad ATM baru, keluar duit dll. Beli burger for lunch and went straight back to the office.

Sampai office, ingatkan nak lelap sat, tengok-tengok email, ada pulak chairman nak tengok outstanding report waktu meeting petang tu. Terpaksa lah mengemaskini laporan, sampai habis lunch hour. Tak pa lah, tak de rezeki lagi nak berehat hari ni. Untuk freshen up sikit, saya pergi basuh muka and gosok gigi. Pukul 2, meeting start.

Meeting ni suspens sebab Division saya ada 11 lagi permohonan yang outstanding untuk tahun 2010. Hiks..tapi semuanya berakhir dengan baik, alhamdulillah.

Meeting habis pukul 5.30, balik tu, sembang sat dengan officers, lepas tu clear kan beberapa kerja yang di atas meja. Ingatkan nak habiskan semua fail yang di atas meja, tapi tak larat la pulak, decided to bring home..and alhamdulillah, sempurna sudah semuanya(now is 11.30 pm)

saya dinner nasi beriyani yang di bawa balik dari ofis. Tengahari tadi ada tahlil, saya tak sempat pergi, tapi kak syazi telah bawakkan saya satu bungkus, alhamdulillah, selesai masalah dinner saya, habis sebungkus kongsi dengan hubby.

Overall today was a productive one. I was busy, but alhamdulillah I was sihat , not sakit kepala...kira oklah tu. I hope for a better day tomorrow, insya allah.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Ponat Den!

Sekarang pukul 4.15, masih kerja, tapi saya penat sangat, tak larat nak fokus.

Meeting mula pukul 9.00 pagi, dan hanya habis pukul 3.40. Duduk dalam meeting tuh, stress gila, sakit kepala. Lagi satu, tak breakfast pulak agaknya, campur period heavy, haaaa, good combination lah tuh, la ni kepala berdenyut-denyut.

Saya masuk bilik, try tidur, tak boleh juga, bangun, basuh muka, gosok gigi, and sapu krim halia kat tengkuk dan kepala dan telah primrose oil capsule sebijik...

pastu, tengok redmummy blog sat, beautifulnara juga...and decided to update blog juga sekejap.

Esok pun meeting pagi dan petang. Yang petang tu, mahu habis pukul 7 tu, huwaaaa.

tiba-tiba, dapat pulak satu panggilan makrifat...ya Allah, semoga semuanya akan berakhir dengan baik ...aamiiin. back to work guys..

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Jimat

Hari ni saya dikejutkan dengan bil elektrik sebanyak RM55...haaaa, terkejut besar. Tahu kenapa? Sebab selalunya bil letrik saya hanyalah dalam lingkungan RM30 sahaja and the increment was almost a 100 percent increment.

I wonder whether the increment was as per announced by the government recently? If that is really the case, kasihannya mereka yang berpendapatan lebih rendah, bil letrik naik, harga minyak naik, harga kicap pun sekarang sudah lebih dari RM4. Mencabar sungguh kehidupan sekarang.

Perkara ini pernah dibincangkan di dalam sinar pagi (stesen radio). I remember this one gentleman was proudly saying that Malaysian citizen should stop expecting the government to subsidize the prize of oil, sugar etc. In his opinion, Malaysian should be independent and stop begging from the government.

Hmmm, rakyat yang kurang berpendapatan seperti kita ni tidak sepatutnya di beri subsidi? Tapi macam mana pula dengan syarikat besar yang memohon pelbagai insentif/pengecualian cukai? Rasanya, lagi besar syarikat, lagi besar jumlah subsidi yang mereka minta? hmmm...is that consider begging juga? Cuma namanya insentif, bukan subsidi.

Kalau rakyat miskin yang meminta pertolongan, sekiranya diberi RM300 sebulan pun mereka sudah cukup gembira dan mencukupi.

Hmmm, tak pe lah, siapalah kita kan, rakyat marhain je, kerja dengan kerajaan dan contribute sedikit untuk perbelanjaan negara dengan cukai yang dibayar tuh...

haaa, sebenarnya saya nak tulis yang.... oleh kerana sebab-sebab di atas, saya bercadang untuk mengurangkan perbelanjaan untuk hari raya tahun ni...saya mahu berjimat!

Friday, July 22, 2011

Stucked!

I am feeling extremely tired nowadays. I looked forward for my night sleep everyday and the moment I woke up from sleep, work was always on my mind. My dream was on work, my officers and my superiors. This is certainly not the kind of life that I would want to lead for the rest of my life.

On my journey to work this morning, I pray for Allah's help. Please Allah, let me be strong. Let me have the physical strength to face all this hurdles. Let me have a clear mind, let me be able to think and be able to solve problems ahead. And, no matter how complicated the problem is, please let me be calm, and please let my brain work and please let my brain transfer the message to my mouth so that I will be able to put it forward with my words

Haaa...itu doa yang suci murni kan?

The funny thing is, right after I recited the doa', I turned on the radio and immediately this song from Maher Zain was on air (the Malay version): 'Insya allah, insya allah, insya allah ada jalannya'...and for the first time, the lyrics was sort of like talking to me..yeah, 'relax cikbib, insya allah, ada penyelesaian untuk semua benda, have faith..."  eiii...

But I feel released after that. I felt as if I was consoled. Lega....hmm, have faith, life goes on, and yes there are hurdles, but I choose not to be stucked anywhere. I choose to move forward, and I choose to be happy? Boleh cikbib? Cikbib bole...hoyeee

Sunday, July 17, 2011

My Saturday

Hubby and I went for a wedding at Pulau Indah today. I have never been to Pulau Indah before, so, this is the first time for both of us. Pulau Indah was actually a pulau, but since the bridge connecting the pulau and tanah besar was built, Pulau Indah seems to be very near and part of the tanah besar already.

Since we attended the kenduri, lunch was taken care of, so, no cooking for today.

As for tomorrow, most probably we will do some marketing and hubby requested gulai ketam for one of the menu...ha ha, no problemo.

As for me, I just want to tidy up/clean the house and have a good rest to save up more energy for next week...kerja banyak menanti.

I wanted to post some pictures today, tapi lepas tu, malas la pulak. But lately the performance of our PI max has improved and the time taken to upload photos become less..so, gunakanlah PI.

okay, itu sahajalah dulu..maybe I could think of something interesting tomorrow.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Keep on dreaming

I am a pisces girl and one significant criteria of a pisces girl is : a dreamer...

Let's dream.

I dream that suddenly a box which is under my dressing table is suddenly filled with cash, ha ha, altogether there's RM5 million...haaaa, cikbib kaya, cikbib kaya.

perkara pertama :

lompat lompat dulu, sebab happy

perkara kedua:

kena kira fitrah lah, kita bersihkan dulu duit tu

perkara ketiga:

start planning. Nak beli satu unit Jewellery (banglo di seksyen 7), habiskan hutang and make sure ada allocation untuk simpan, pelaburan untuk masa depan. Bagi hubby sikit and some allocation for anak-anak yong saya.

boleh berhenti kerja?? ha ha...hmmmm...maybe ambil satu lagi degree in psychology...pastu jadi pakar sakit jiwa. Bila orang yang stress datang, kita tenang atau tidurkan dia, suruh dia cakap...tapi kita buat benda lain, ha ha ha....bottom line, I just want to do something fun.

hmmm, boleh pergi joging hari-hari, enjoy the day, tulis blog...kurang stress....boleh terlibat dengan kerja kebajikan ke???

boleh buat operation untuk kecikkan perut? ha ha, baru lah kurus sikit...

boleh pergi haji...pergi travel, saya nak mengembara ke seluruh dunia...haaa....bestnya berangan....release sikit stress

Sunday, July 10, 2011

It's Sunday night and yeah, I have not been updating my blog lately.

I was not feeling well. I felt so weak and I can feel that my body really requested some rest. I wanted to take leave, but could not. I decided to go on working but went back early and the moment I arrived home, I hit the pillow and went to the other world. Alhamdulillah cuti solat...so...boleh la buat perangai macam itu.

I usually woke up a little later to take my bath and continue sleeping after that. Another thing, I used those foot patch which I think really worked...I felt better the next day.

Dah berumur sikit kan, overweight sikit pulak tu, so I better take care of myself.

Actually there are issues that are bothering my mind lately, but I must stay strong and do not mix job and personal matters if I want to live longer, ha ha...semoga semuanya akan berakhir dengan cara yang terbaik dalam jangkamasa yang terdekat ini...good nite guys... and I will continue writing after this, don't worry.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Are you romantic?

I have drafted this quite a long time ago after listening to hot fm while driving to work. The issue was whether you are a romantic person or not. I kind of wondering whether I am a romantic person myself, let me do some survey on myself here.

I have to agree with Faizal Ismail (hot fm dj) that being romantic is a very subjective matter. He considers himself as romantic because he calls his wife every morning after he finishes his morning session,  brings breakfast (tapau) from home and he will go back for lunch and ...hmmm, I do think that is romantic, because it shows that he appreciates what his wife does. 

As for me, I really don't know. I think I always would want my husband to be romantic but as I am writing here, I just could not find my romantic side yet, hmmm let me think.

Am I romantic? Yes, I do practise all those hugs and kisses before I leave home for office (kalu tak perang la)...but then, most of the time, I'll be doing it to a half asleep person whom sometimes just wish that I would not interrupt his second round after subuh sleep.

Presents?..I believe I have given many presents although it was never wrapped properly. I think it is necessary to give a present sometimes, a proper one I think...yup, this one is missing

cards..as for this one, I have given up since the one sent was never replied. Merajuk!!

masak? Yup...whenever possible

buat air? yup..he he, walaupun kadang-kadang mulut ngomel-ngomel gak sebab asyik-asyik nak minum air berperisa kan, minumla air masak kadang-kadang...

siapkan baju suami untuk pergi kerja?...this one I did for the first two years of my marriage, after that ....he he, rahsia

kemas rumah?..yup..I do feel happier if the house is neat. So does hubby, so, it just comes naturally.

so far I look so not romantic kan?..but I do love to watch movies about love, in fact last Sunday alone I watched 3 HBO movies, all love stories..after watching I was so puas hati, macam best.

I love stories about love/romance/life. I love strories which I can understand, the one which I can relate to the characters, to feel, to cry and laugh with them. I love to watch the handsome guys like Robert Redford, Bruce Willis, Richard Gere and even the younger ones like Keanu Reeves. Hmm...does that make me a romantic person?...Not yet

Hmm, how about dressing? Ha ha ha, this one, isk, hard to say man since I am a simple person and most of the time I choose something comfortable especially at home, t-shirt, t-shirt, t-shirt...he he he...no frilly/sexy whateva...nope...

Hair...my hair is short and straight which means it will still look okay even if I do not comb it for one month...easy maintenance

I have to work harder, there must be something that indicate me as a romantic person...

feelings?...hmmm...feelings, nothing more than feelings, trying to forget my, feeling of love...kalau feelings ni mesti ada shahdu-shahdu sikit kan?... I know I would love to be disyahdukan, but am I a shahdu person?

suara/percakapan : Shuk said I sound so sweet and young in the telephone...but I look so big and frightening outside..kah kah kah...fail lagi...but at least I do not yell...most of the time? sometimes tu adalah jugak....betul?

Though my big eyes are a little bit scary...hua hua hua.

I feel like crying now, after evaluating myself..where is my romantic side? I wonder

Friday, July 1, 2011

Kisses and Hugs

I was having a headache and cannot focus. Hmmm, but I did manage to clear more than 20 files anyway..but after that, I gave up, sharp 5.30 pm, I went back home. I need to rest. Sampai rumah, lepas maghrib je, I terus lelap sampai pukul 12, baru bangun and mandi. I hope I will feel well tomorrow sebab ada banyak kerja yang menanti.

Hmm, nak cerita apa?

The title is very interesting kan? I feel like writing about this because I happened to witness one of my officer (used to) kissed his wife goodbye at the parking lot...ha ha ha...macam mengintai la pulak. But really, dia bukan cium sekali, dua kali, atau tiga kali, tapi berkali-kali, and I was like, waaaaaa, hebat dia ni. Tapi wife dia mesti terharu kan?

Do my husband kiss me goodbye every morning? The answer now is : hardly. Why? Because 90% of the time, hubby is still asleep at the time I have to go out working. But I will kiss him in his sleep la, and kiss his hand too.

But hubby used to do it everyday when I travelled to work by train. Yeah, he used to send me with our black wira, and I will kiss his hand and he will kiss me back...but it will only be a kiss (one kiss), not two, not three kisses...haaaaa ye la, sebab lepas tu I nak berlari kejar train kan

Tapi kira kalau one kiss pun dah okay dah tu sebab kalau kami not in a good term, I may not allow him to kiss me forrrr...a week? Yeah, it happened once ...and hubby macam sedih, tapi dia tetap tak pujuk saya pun, dinding aja yang pujuk saya waktu tu.

Tapi sekarang, memang ada eloknya budaya kiss and goodbye ni dibuat untuk suami isteri. Sebabnya, walaupun bila saya mengamuk, saya rasa macam tak sempurna aja kalau tak cium suami sebelum pergi kerja, tengok muka suami tidur tu, timbul la juga lembut hati walaupun bila balik dari kerja nanti, saya boleh buat perangai balik, ha ha , isteri mithali betul la saya ni

But it is a good therapy, really. Saya ni sebenarnya kurang perasaan sikit sebab telah dibesarkan dengan kurang pelukan dan feel kut. Saya tidak pernah ingat yang emak saya cium atau peluk saya waktu kecil...never, really. Saya tahu dia mesti ada buat la waktu saya baby, tapi tidak selepas saya mula mengerti dan boleh mengingat. Memang tidak ada dalam database ingatan saya.

Tapi sekarang ni, mungkin emak saya pun dah masuk angkatan wanita insaf kut, and dia cium and peluk juga anak-anak dia yang lain, tapi dengan saya still kurang, mungkin sebab saya ni terlampau macho kut, ha ha

Walau bagaimanapun, kesan daripada cara emak saya itu, saya telah membesar menjadi seorang yang dingin, without feeling. Saya kekok untuk berpeluk dengan orang lain termasuk untuk berpeluk/bersalam bersama-sama kawan perempuan (yang muhrim la).

Kahwin pulak, lambat kan, jadi, hanya selepas saya dewasa sangat baru saya menghargai hugs and kisses. Kadang-kadang, kalau ada masalah kat ofis, ingat je kat suami and wish that I could hug him, mesti rasa lega sikit...hmmm, tak payah bayar tau nak peluk suami.

I must have changed! Tapi yang ni rasanya positive lah perubahan tu kan? Thank you hubby for being there always!